Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
You tell me your blue skies fade to grey
You tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on
You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong
So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Dear Diary...
Dear you,
How have you been up till now? It has been quite some time since I ever talked to you hasn't it? Many things have happened since the last I saw you, yet so little things that I can describe to you. I'm really sorry for not writing or talking to you.
I guess I haven't been myself at all in these few months. SO much has changed and I really am confused with myself. I couldn't find the right words to speak to you because I couldn't find the right words to present to you. I did wrote to you many times, but always get stuck in the middle of my own words. Probably I thought that there were nothing worth for you to keep in mind about. Perhaps I overlooked again, and failed to realize that all you wanted what to know the bits and chips of my daily life... I know that I would be interested to hear your words, from your lips... if that is ever possible.
It took some time to realize that, everyday is a day to be cherished. Nothing is to plain or boring to tell you. For you are miles away, the only way to keep our distance close was to let you in on our lives. I don't think that you can ever reply me, but I'll make the first step anyways to let you know how I've been doing. Perhaps one day, someone will pick this up and exchange messages with me. So until then, I'll try and promise to keep on writing, till the day we pick each other up away from the gloomy feelings.
Have you ever been stuck at difficult choices in life? I sure have a hell'o lot of it. I guess the question is, how do you measure happiness? Do you thrive for the best? If so, when would you be contented? The term "don't be greedy" alway come in mind but yet, "always strive for the best" is advised. Again, the most logical explanation is to use the advice at a proper time and situation.
I've been unhappy yet contented at the same time. So tell me... what should I do? Should I strive for happiness and leave my sense of fulfillment behind for the unknown? While many has told me that we should alway seek for happiness but yet, is there a way to be truly happy? Nobody knows... Its been a circular journey so far; Every time I moved ahead, I end up at the same position again... Feeling bitter rather than sweet.
Somehow it felt like my struggles in life is all meaningless. I've had dreams, goals & wishes. What has happened to them I wonder... All crushed to bits by the waves that hit me hard. Did I not try hard enough? or was it just too much to handle? Despite feeling dark and down, I always carried a glimpse of light called hope. It was the hope that kept me moving, hoping that one day things will turn for the better, and on... building up the dreams together with the person I cherish most.
Yet again, HOPE is such a strong yet brittle word. My light is dimming day by day... I wonder how long would it keep burning? Perhaps I am just too tired, too frustrated with myself. I guess that its time to take a break... A holiday... A long vacation...
and If someday I do return from my journey, or even crossed your path... Would you be my hope, my light? In return, I promise that you'll always be kept close in my heart and soul, like a beautiful fairy tale where both you and me find our happily ever after, Together...
-ramblings of a semi-conscious other me...-
How have you been up till now? It has been quite some time since I ever talked to you hasn't it? Many things have happened since the last I saw you, yet so little things that I can describe to you. I'm really sorry for not writing or talking to you.
I guess I haven't been myself at all in these few months. SO much has changed and I really am confused with myself. I couldn't find the right words to speak to you because I couldn't find the right words to present to you. I did wrote to you many times, but always get stuck in the middle of my own words. Probably I thought that there were nothing worth for you to keep in mind about. Perhaps I overlooked again, and failed to realize that all you wanted what to know the bits and chips of my daily life... I know that I would be interested to hear your words, from your lips... if that is ever possible.
It took some time to realize that, everyday is a day to be cherished. Nothing is to plain or boring to tell you. For you are miles away, the only way to keep our distance close was to let you in on our lives. I don't think that you can ever reply me, but I'll make the first step anyways to let you know how I've been doing. Perhaps one day, someone will pick this up and exchange messages with me. So until then, I'll try and promise to keep on writing, till the day we pick each other up away from the gloomy feelings.
Have you ever been stuck at difficult choices in life? I sure have a hell'o lot of it. I guess the question is, how do you measure happiness? Do you thrive for the best? If so, when would you be contented? The term "don't be greedy" alway come in mind but yet, "always strive for the best" is advised. Again, the most logical explanation is to use the advice at a proper time and situation.
I've been unhappy yet contented at the same time. So tell me... what should I do? Should I strive for happiness and leave my sense of fulfillment behind for the unknown? While many has told me that we should alway seek for happiness but yet, is there a way to be truly happy? Nobody knows... Its been a circular journey so far; Every time I moved ahead, I end up at the same position again... Feeling bitter rather than sweet.
Somehow it felt like my struggles in life is all meaningless. I've had dreams, goals & wishes. What has happened to them I wonder... All crushed to bits by the waves that hit me hard. Did I not try hard enough? or was it just too much to handle? Despite feeling dark and down, I always carried a glimpse of light called hope. It was the hope that kept me moving, hoping that one day things will turn for the better, and on... building up the dreams together with the person I cherish most.
Yet again, HOPE is such a strong yet brittle word. My light is dimming day by day... I wonder how long would it keep burning? Perhaps I am just too tired, too frustrated with myself. I guess that its time to take a break... A holiday... A long vacation...
and If someday I do return from my journey, or even crossed your path... Would you be my hope, my light? In return, I promise that you'll always be kept close in my heart and soul, like a beautiful fairy tale where both you and me find our happily ever after, Together...
-ramblings of a semi-conscious other me...-
Monday, January 21, 2008
Friday, January 18, 2008
Closure
Who is responsible when someone did something to you that you hated? While it might seem that the initiator being the baddie, this isn't always true for people living with different understandings. So how do you hate a person for not knowing what you like or dislike?
Cartoons do make a lot of sense at times. Remember the scene in Chicken Little where Abby Mallard told Chicken Little about having closure with his dad? When both party aren't communicating well enough, it would only spell misunderstanding. If you're never going to be honest about your feelings, then nobody will understand you. I really do think that we need to be more honest about how we feel in building a good relationship with anyone that we treasure.
Working in a global environment reminded me that there are many people in the world. We are all different people, with different names, background, and culture. So how do we work together as a team? It really is difficult and sometimes offensive when you don't understand a certain people's action. For example, a "thumbs up" in a country (i've forgotten where but its true) means the opposite to "excellent" in our terms. It is important for both of us to understand each other's cultures and habit, so that you might not get offended. From there on, we mutually develop an understanding to respect our differences.
Sometimes I just don't understand why people prefer to hide their emotions so deep inside. While it means privacy to you... we must learn to express ourselves a little so that people will know you better, and learn how to respect and treat you better. Who can you blame when someone did things that hurt your feelings? How would've anyone know if you never expressed or made known you hate something.
While there are a few "gifted" people who are sensitive enough to know what you think by just looking at your actions, there are only a handful of people around you that is capable of doing that. Still, we are never born mind readers and humans, do change in time. So what might be accurate now might not be the same for good.
From a personal point of view, I find it very hard to grasp and somewhat annoying when a person has an issue with you but don't try to work it out. Rather, they expect you to realize what they dislike and the irony is, they try so hard to hide the fact that they DO hate it. I believe you can't hate people out of your own expectations. Its only fair to say that you're disappointed when someone failed your expectation, with prior knowledge that they knew what was expected from them.
Think of it... you want to be mysterious, yet you want people understand you. So which is the actual intention? Its really ironic... I felt like I'm like this too at times... but I realize sometimes to get things moving, you have to be honest yourself first to get the rest of the world moving. Only because everyone is afraid to get hurt, someone must be bold enough to make a move... who knows... the world will revolve in your favour...
Cartoons do make a lot of sense at times. Remember the scene in Chicken Little where Abby Mallard told Chicken Little about having closure with his dad? When both party aren't communicating well enough, it would only spell misunderstanding. If you're never going to be honest about your feelings, then nobody will understand you. I really do think that we need to be more honest about how we feel in building a good relationship with anyone that we treasure.
Working in a global environment reminded me that there are many people in the world. We are all different people, with different names, background, and culture. So how do we work together as a team? It really is difficult and sometimes offensive when you don't understand a certain people's action. For example, a "thumbs up" in a country (i've forgotten where but its true) means the opposite to "excellent" in our terms. It is important for both of us to understand each other's cultures and habit, so that you might not get offended. From there on, we mutually develop an understanding to respect our differences.
Sometimes I just don't understand why people prefer to hide their emotions so deep inside. While it means privacy to you... we must learn to express ourselves a little so that people will know you better, and learn how to respect and treat you better. Who can you blame when someone did things that hurt your feelings? How would've anyone know if you never expressed or made known you hate something.
While there are a few "gifted" people who are sensitive enough to know what you think by just looking at your actions, there are only a handful of people around you that is capable of doing that. Still, we are never born mind readers and humans, do change in time. So what might be accurate now might not be the same for good.
From a personal point of view, I find it very hard to grasp and somewhat annoying when a person has an issue with you but don't try to work it out. Rather, they expect you to realize what they dislike and the irony is, they try so hard to hide the fact that they DO hate it. I believe you can't hate people out of your own expectations. Its only fair to say that you're disappointed when someone failed your expectation, with prior knowledge that they knew what was expected from them.
Think of it... you want to be mysterious, yet you want people understand you. So which is the actual intention? Its really ironic... I felt like I'm like this too at times... but I realize sometimes to get things moving, you have to be honest yourself first to get the rest of the world moving. Only because everyone is afraid to get hurt, someone must be bold enough to make a move... who knows... the world will revolve in your favour...
Monday, January 14, 2008
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
Hello World.
I've been missing for months now... Just moved to a new house about a month ago and I was internet-less for these few weeks! Oh the agony of no internet. I just realized how empty the PC would be without the internet. I had to get through a lot of crap just to get the PC hooked up to the net. Its a freaking long story so probably I'll write a separate post on it when I have the time.
Firstly Happy New Year to everyone! This would be my first post of the year and there's just so much to recap and tell... but, am really lazy now + I've been having the headache since morning. So... I'll keep my grand-uncle stories for the next post.
Shout-out to everyone: I'm sorry for the mistakes I've done, Sorry for the times I hurt you bad, Sorry for the hutang I hutang so long... hehehe (i'd Maybank2U earlier but there was the internet issue for over a month). So... looking forward to a great new year with all of you, my pals, my darlings, my imaginary friends, my pocket...
Firstly Happy New Year to everyone! This would be my first post of the year and there's just so much to recap and tell... but, am really lazy now + I've been having the headache since morning. So... I'll keep my grand-uncle stories for the next post.
Shout-out to everyone: I'm sorry for the mistakes I've done, Sorry for the times I hurt you bad, Sorry for the hutang I hutang so long... hehehe (i'd Maybank2U earlier but there was the internet issue for over a month). So... looking forward to a great new year with all of you, my pals, my darlings, my imaginary friends, my pocket...
Saturday, October 20, 2007
The Condom Story
Hmm.. been writing gibberish and making lots and lots of errors. Here's a not so gibberish post...
This incident happened about a week ago (during hari raya) when I was in Mid-Valley shopping with my friend. My pal and I went shopping (yes... men do shopping too) to look for some stuffs that he wanted. The list was long; spanning from the top to bottom of his feet. It was quite enjoyable really... hadn't been out hanging out with the guys for some time already.
So our last stop for the day was Watsons. My friend wanted to look for some prescription medicine and so we headed towards the end of the pharmacy. Right before reaching the pharmacist counter was a rack filled with lots of stuffs... ( I can't remember though..) and at the very end portion of the rack was condoms. Yes, I haven't mentioned that Watsons was on Sale that day... So most of the stuffs we're having discounts; including the condoms. Right in front of the rack was a tag and on it, written "15% off". Hmm.. If i needed it, that would be a great time to get those jumbo packs.
So anyway, as both of us walked past the aisle I noticed a man standing in front of the condoms rack and looking at the Durex box. He picked one up and well... maybe he was wondering which one to buy. On the same aisle, was a pretty looking girl standing near the guy. She had the innocent look and quite an adorable lass at first sight. As we walked pass the man, he turned around and spoke to the girl out loud "Look! got discount sammore.."
Immediately I glanced at the girl and she was blushing with nowhere to hide. Her reaction was like she didn't even knew the guy and immediately walked off the aisle to the next rack, blushinig and smiling away... It seemed that the girl was the guy's girlfriend and needless to say... hehehehe
Oh well, i guess he won't have the pleasure to use those condoms that night after an embarrassing moment at the pharmacy. What would you do... if your boyfriend did the same stupid mistake like him? ... Hmmm... i don't even wanna know ....
This incident happened about a week ago (during hari raya) when I was in Mid-Valley shopping with my friend. My pal and I went shopping (yes... men do shopping too) to look for some stuffs that he wanted. The list was long; spanning from the top to bottom of his feet. It was quite enjoyable really... hadn't been out hanging out with the guys for some time already.
So our last stop for the day was Watsons. My friend wanted to look for some prescription medicine and so we headed towards the end of the pharmacy. Right before reaching the pharmacist counter was a rack filled with lots of stuffs... ( I can't remember though..) and at the very end portion of the rack was condoms. Yes, I haven't mentioned that Watsons was on Sale that day... So most of the stuffs we're having discounts; including the condoms. Right in front of the rack was a tag and on it, written "15% off". Hmm.. If i needed it, that would be a great time to get those jumbo packs.
So anyway, as both of us walked past the aisle I noticed a man standing in front of the condoms rack and looking at the Durex box. He picked one up and well... maybe he was wondering which one to buy. On the same aisle, was a pretty looking girl standing near the guy. She had the innocent look and quite an adorable lass at first sight. As we walked pass the man, he turned around and spoke to the girl out loud "Look! got discount sammore.."
Immediately I glanced at the girl and she was blushing with nowhere to hide. Her reaction was like she didn't even knew the guy and immediately walked off the aisle to the next rack, blushinig and smiling away... It seemed that the girl was the guy's girlfriend and needless to say... hehehehe
Oh well, i guess he won't have the pleasure to use those condoms that night after an embarrassing moment at the pharmacy. What would you do... if your boyfriend did the same stupid mistake like him? ... Hmmm... i don't even wanna know ....
Monday, October 08, 2007
Quoted...
Whatever your cross,
whatever your pain,
there will always be sunshine,
after the rain ....
Perhaps you may stumble,
perhaps even fall,
But God's always ready,
To answer your call ...
He knows every heartache,
sees every tear,
A word from His lips,
can calm every fear ...
Your sorrows may linger,
throughout the night,
But suddenly vanish,
in dawn's early light ...
The Savior is waiting,
somewhere above,
To give you His grace,
and send you His love...
Whatever your cross,
whatever your pain,
"God always sends rainbows ....
after the rain ... "
Saturday, October 06, 2007
Untitled
"You And Me"
What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time
'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
One of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right
'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
Friday, October 05, 2007
Its Only Natural...
I've been going about lately trying to write, express whatever I wanted but it seemed to have stopped in the middle every time. Up till to-date, there are 4 unpublished post still inside my account. What am I to do with them? I've lost interest in them somehow, the story isn't so beautiful anymore.
I guess this is how life is too in reality. Nothing is perfect and beautiful all the time. Yes, we all know it already but why do we still feel the way we are now? Probably, its only natural...
What am I blabbering about? I am not so sure myself... Let's take a break here and step into a sub post ...
The Story of a Boy: In My Perfect World.
I once had a dream... of a perfect relationship...
I would love her with all my heart, and she will cherish me with joy.
We'll never have to fight, We'll always talk things right.
I'll always hear her out, and I'll never have to shout.
I'd be there right by her side, She'll never have to hide,
For I will protect her, from anything she fear.
I'd be the one she admire, she'll never have to desire,
I'd go with all her wanting, there's never need for calling.
Our feelings they'll never go, till old it will always grow,
We'll see our lives together, our love will never falter.
My promise to you my dear, I stated it loud and clear,
Your smile it makes me lift, your recognition my greatest gift...
- FIN -
On to reality... If only it was this perfect... No matter how I wish and tried, it could never be that great. Love is great, but we are all human after all. Sometimes it gets tired especially when we never get the same affection in return.
People always never appreciate of what they already have. Even when it is good and pure, they will still overlook and yearn for more. The only time they ever realize and come to their senses, is to lose it and regret later. What for? only to lose and realize...
*here's something that was kept in the draft for a month
I guess this is how life is too in reality. Nothing is perfect and beautiful all the time. Yes, we all know it already but why do we still feel the way we are now? Probably, its only natural...
What am I blabbering about? I am not so sure myself... Let's take a break here and step into a sub post ...
The Story of a Boy: In My Perfect World.
I once had a dream... of a perfect relationship...
I would love her with all my heart, and she will cherish me with joy.
We'll never have to fight, We'll always talk things right.
I'll always hear her out, and I'll never have to shout.
I'd be there right by her side, She'll never have to hide,
For I will protect her, from anything she fear.
I'd be the one she admire, she'll never have to desire,
I'd go with all her wanting, there's never need for calling.
Our feelings they'll never go, till old it will always grow,
We'll see our lives together, our love will never falter.
My promise to you my dear, I stated it loud and clear,
Your smile it makes me lift, your recognition my greatest gift...
- FIN -
On to reality... If only it was this perfect... No matter how I wish and tried, it could never be that great. Love is great, but we are all human after all. Sometimes it gets tired especially when we never get the same affection in return.
People always never appreciate of what they already have. Even when it is good and pure, they will still overlook and yearn for more. The only time they ever realize and come to their senses, is to lose it and regret later. What for? only to lose and realize...
*here's something that was kept in the draft for a month
Solitude
Have you ever felt out of tune to life? Those moments where things just doesn't seem right at all? Nothing happened but you just can't seem to understand why you feel tired and fed up with everything around you...
Today is one of those days that's happening to me. It might be the work stress perhaps? I've just switch posting again and am holding big responsibilities over my shoulders. Just imagine that you are a... for say... Char Kuey Teow man... the next thing you know, your boss tells you that you are gonna be a VP tomorrow. Yeap, that's how big the gap feels for me now. I'm really glad that I managed to go this far in a year... but (psst... ) fact is nobody dared to take the job and it all comes down to the noobest/freshest of them all... ME! aaaaAAAaaHHHhhh.
To further shorten my lifespan by giving me more heart attacks, I was picked/"volunteered"/asked a favour to replace a colleague of mine for on call duty. There goes my weekends... say goodbye to goodnight and sleep tight, welcome horrific midnight calls! Hmm... maybe I should just pretend that I didn't hear the phone ring... hahahaha That would certainly be a good though... Why am I so restless??? This is also my first time on call =.=". Hopefully I can have a peaceful week till next week where I can handover my on call duty to someone else. :P
Or maybe cuz I'm sick? Haven't been feeling well lately. My throat has been irritating me for the past 2 days and I really hate sore throats. I get all gramps when I get the sore throat! I don't wanna be grumpy!!! I'd really love to set my eye of those MC's for being sick right now but I can't! As the saying goes, "Tak harn sei, em tak harn bheng" <--- rough translation: Got time to die, no time to fall ill.
Or maaaaaaybe... I'm getting fickle minded over personal issues. Sometimes I'd sit at my bed side and my mind starts wandering off.... .... .... Like now... Life hasn't really been rosy for me personally. Work is fine but just don't seem to be happy at home and etc. Don't you just wish that you knew the right path to choose? Choices choices... Decisions... and more of that crap. Ah... I'm really starting to get off to nowhere aren't I? Here's a question, what would you do if you've been hurt?
Sigh... I need a vacation... A trip to an uncharted island where I could just sit there and all I need worry is about what I'm gonna eat on my next meal... Ah what the heck, I'm gonna be alright tomorrow morning. MMmmnnn... some TLC might speed things up... hahaha :P
Seems like this is a normal thing :http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Solitude.
Phew....
Today is one of those days that's happening to me. It might be the work stress perhaps? I've just switch posting again and am holding big responsibilities over my shoulders. Just imagine that you are a... for say... Char Kuey Teow man... the next thing you know, your boss tells you that you are gonna be a VP tomorrow. Yeap, that's how big the gap feels for me now. I'm really glad that I managed to go this far in a year... but (psst... ) fact is nobody dared to take the job and it all comes down to the noobest/freshest of them all... ME! aaaaAAAaaHHHhhh.
To further shorten my lifespan by giving me more heart attacks, I was picked/"volunteered"/asked a favour to replace a colleague of mine for on call duty. There goes my weekends... say goodbye to goodnight and sleep tight, welcome horrific midnight calls! Hmm... maybe I should just pretend that I didn't hear the phone ring... hahahaha That would certainly be a good though... Why am I so restless??? This is also my first time on call =.=". Hopefully I can have a peaceful week till next week where I can handover my on call duty to someone else. :P
Or maybe cuz I'm sick? Haven't been feeling well lately. My throat has been irritating me for the past 2 days and I really hate sore throats. I get all gramps when I get the sore throat! I don't wanna be grumpy!!! I'd really love to set my eye of those MC's for being sick right now but I can't! As the saying goes, "Tak harn sei, em tak harn bheng" <--- rough translation: Got time to die, no time to fall ill.
Or maaaaaaybe... I'm getting fickle minded over personal issues. Sometimes I'd sit at my bed side and my mind starts wandering off.... .... .... Like now... Life hasn't really been rosy for me personally. Work is fine but just don't seem to be happy at home and etc. Don't you just wish that you knew the right path to choose? Choices choices... Decisions... and more of that crap. Ah... I'm really starting to get off to nowhere aren't I? Here's a question, what would you do if you've been hurt?
Sigh... I need a vacation... A trip to an uncharted island where I could just sit there and all I need worry is about what I'm gonna eat on my next meal... Ah what the heck, I'm gonna be alright tomorrow morning. MMmmnnn... some TLC might speed things up... hahaha :P
Seems like this is a normal thing :http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Solitude.
Phew....
Thursday, October 04, 2007
My Fairy Tale Princess
to a wonderful someone...
===========================
You're like a fairy tale princess,
You're like a dream come true.
You're all hes' ever wanted,
Yet you never had a clue.
Your tender voice fills him with joy,
It broke the spell of a lonely boy,
This blessed you he truly believe,
Like Sleeping Beauty a fairy's gift.
Your brilliant smile lights up his day,
His growing pain you'll ease them away,
This charming you can only compare,
To lovely Snow White only that's fair.
Your presence felt, he stood in awe,
So lost for words the moment he saw,
This graceful you so treasured in mind,
Like Cinderella who graced down in time.
to be continued...
*Its not a complete post yet and will be updating this from time to time. Hoping this post will grow slowly..
===========================
You're like a fairy tale princess,
You're like a dream come true.
You're all hes' ever wanted,
Yet you never had a clue.
Your tender voice fills him with joy,
It broke the spell of a lonely boy,
This blessed you he truly believe,
Like Sleeping Beauty a fairy's gift.
Your brilliant smile lights up his day,
His growing pain you'll ease them away,
This charming you can only compare,
To lovely Snow White only that's fair.
Your presence felt, he stood in awe,
So lost for words the moment he saw,
This graceful you so treasured in mind,
Like Cinderella who graced down in time.
to be continued...
*Its not a complete post yet and will be updating this from time to time. Hoping this post will grow slowly..
Monday, September 03, 2007
Losing my brains...
Just a quick and short note... I had lots of stuffs to say... It was in my mind already and er... I just forgotten what to blog about... Signs of aging? Time can be so so so cruel... :P Gimme a few days and I'd probably be able to recall what I wanted to say...
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
Intermission
Been really busy lately in the office and its really killing off my brain. Think I'm turning into a Pig.. Here's an indicator:
I'll be back soon with more crap to unload here. Thanks again for the support. I'm blushing here... not.. :P hehehehe
- Expansion on waistline - I neeeeeed new pants!
- My daily routine is wake up - sit - eat - sit - eat - sleep
- I only move when I'm pushed to move
I'll be back soon with more crap to unload here. Thanks again for the support. I'm blushing here... not.. :P hehehehe
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
It made me smile...
Bloggin... It really made me smile to see people actually spending some time to read what's written here. Feels kinda nice that when people enjoy whats written. Heck, I shoulda go take majors in English or literature instead of IT! Thanks for the support :) (to be continued...)
Monday, June 04, 2007
Story that never was...
She was gold, and
She was bold, but
He was scared, and
yet he cared.
He was lost, and
There she was, but
He was gloved, and
She was loved,
He stayed the same, and
still quite sane, but
She had change, and
She was strange,
Now he stopped, and
He never talked, but
Now he's lost, and
at her cost,
This is fate, and
all to late, but
love they share, and
yet never there...
Love was found, and
Love was lost, but
Love is round, and
Love can bound.
She was bold, but
He was scared, and
yet he cared.
He was lost, and
There she was, but
He was gloved, and
She was loved,
He stayed the same, and
still quite sane, but
She had change, and
She was strange,
Now he stopped, and
He never talked, but
Now he's lost, and
at her cost,
This is fate, and
all to late, but
love they share, and
yet never there...
Love was found, and
Love was lost, but
Love is round, and
Love can bound.
Sunday, June 03, 2007
Love is...
When you are lost... remember this...
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.
Corinthians 13:4-7
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.
Corinthians 13:4-7
Sunday, April 29, 2007
Dear Diary...
I'm not sure exactly when it started but I do remember that I was chasing/liking girls since primary school. I always find girls very fascinating and I liked the feeling of having a close friend and someone to console me when I am sad. Though it might sound corny, I'm sure most of you can relate to this. Heck my classmates were already acknowledging their couples even wat... we were only 11 - 12 maybe?
Probably I was seeking love elsewhere because I never had that family touch and love. Its not that my family don't love me, they do but they stopped hugging, peck me at the cheek nor held my hands since kindergarten. I don't remember the last time hugged or held my mom's hands. We won't touch our siblings as well. The moment our shoulders rub, we would already start fighting. Don't underestimate the power of hugs & simple body gestures.
My first crush was during primary 6 when I got to know this pen-pal from Penang. HAhahah.. come to think of it, it really is funny and sure brings back some memories. Since I grew up in a kampung like environment, I was pretty shy with girls and well... still not the ladies men till now =.=". Back on those days, snail mail was the IN thing. We would compete to get as much of pen-pals as we can. There was also an international pen-pal society which my sister joined. That was really effective if you asked me. People were really sincere and it was fun anticipating mails from the postmen. Internet? what the heck is that? Lots of butterfly nets stacked up together?
Oh where was I? Yeah.. my first crush... Her name was... Mavis... something something. Can't recall her Chinese name. Guess I scared her off when I told her I liked her. That was the last mail I sent and received after that from her hahaha. If she was reading this, I would like to tell her I'm sorry that I freaked her out :P Was still a kid back then and didn't know what I was doing. Well, that was a dumbass move no matter how many times I think about it. I'd really laugh to myself now when I hear that kids in school start confessing to girls even when the results are obvious. Kinda remind me of myself.
Well, I guess we learn along the way. Kids at skool, if you ever bump into this post, its alright to date in school. Its part of growing up but please, keep your little elephant in your pants. Here are something I wanna share with you little guys out there:
As I headed into Secondary school, things are even more interesting. Hormones raging and also the peer pressure of best friends getting coupled! Damn... I wanna erase those memories away hahaha. Secondary was cool but also the gloomiest moments of my life. I had low self-esteem and hated the way I looked back then and it wasn't really helping at the dating department. Looking back at those years, I realize my mistakes of hating myself. Don't, you'll suffer. Learn to love yourself and bring out your personalities and it will shine. Who do you think would love you if you hate yourself?
Altogether, I had several/plenty/uncountable failed attempts at chasing girls during high school. At a point, I was telling myself that I would be a monk when I grow up. The rejections hurt big time, it hurts but it certainly taught me a thing or two. No teacher is better than experience itself. I'd always joke with my friends. Come to me not for advice for courting girls but come to me when you have been turned down. I can ease your pain. After several rejections, you'll learn of what to do and what not. No point in telling people what to do because they won't see how it relates to them. And yes... people just don't listen especially when it comes to this. The biggest advice that you hear is "don't go dating while you're still studying". Seriously, that is really good advice if you ask me now but hey we just don't listen. We only come to sense when time & years pass. STILL, it was good experience to date in school. Better learn when you are young rather than cheated(I am not refering to that... you know what I mean) for the first time when you are 30. Lagi mau bunuh diri.
I got my first girlfriend in Secondary 5 and I broke up 6 months later on my b'day. Not a nice gift but I somewhat chose that day to sort it out with my girlfriend then. We met over the internet and erm.... yes... those were the days where you thought everything is possible. Back then I could chat about almost anything and had a great community over the internet. Where have all the chatting juices gone now? beats me... Funny thing is we met only once and dated over the phone after that... so its not much a relationship when you think about it. Oh... before that I had a gf for a week somewhere during Secondary 3... and again.. probably I can't call her my gf...
Days in college was cool. I met a whole new group of friends(some brothers-in-arm too), fell in love and had a fair share of heartaches along the way too. Think it was the Nth time that I faced rejection which already made me immune to it. Still I had that thought of being a monk soon... =.=". On my last term in college, I met this amazing girl. She was kind to me and we somehow clicked well. We enjoyed each others company a lot. She'd drop by and ask about me when I'm sick and well, basically those little gestures was very sweet. Even though she was already seeing someone, it didn't matter to me cuz I know he's been hurting her. It kills me when I see her cry for him everyday in college. Somehow our friendship/relationship ended up sour when I left college. Don't really know what happened but I guess what's gone is gone. We're in ok terms now but just not that close anymore.
We went to separate Uni later on and life went on without her. I missed her so much, for a year at least since parting with her. Days were gloomy and I just lost interest in everything. The chatty and outgoing me just died back then. I loathed and complained about Uni and hated myself for whatever was happening. Still, things turned out not too bad. I didn't find love but I did find friendship and friends that I appreciate even till now. Some friends that I cared so much that I confuse myself sometimes. All in all, I was contented with what I had then. I was still moaning about the previous encounter that I told myself not to get involved. Still you can't beat the hormones and well, I did resisted temptation for at least 9 months or so.
And soon... Ah, let's just skip this part...
Present time comes and I guess I found someone whom I can appreciate. Although we tried not to argue like other couples but i think that statement might be slightly a bit over-powered. There's bound to be happy and sad times together and we strive through it together. Its what relationship is all about... right? I was the happiest guy alive when we started off. Things were butterfly'ish and I felt top of the world. As years pass, it just tones down a little but I understood that this was a normal thing. Or izzit? We're still together and I'm glad to have known her. She brought hopes and laughters to my sadistic life; though sometimes we have our ugly moments
After all the happy and sad moments of life in relationships, I'm doubting... what actually is love that I've been looking for? Is it the acknowledgement you get after your countless hardships? Probably its like sex where you actually get the 1 - 2 secs of climax but your exercise before that is freaking long. What do we actually look for in relationships? I know I want happiness, I want to be with my loved one but how do you tell if you've found true love? or is there even such thing...
Probably I was seeking love elsewhere because I never had that family touch and love. Its not that my family don't love me, they do but they stopped hugging, peck me at the cheek nor held my hands since kindergarten. I don't remember the last time hugged or held my mom's hands. We won't touch our siblings as well. The moment our shoulders rub, we would already start fighting. Don't underestimate the power of hugs & simple body gestures.
My first crush was during primary 6 when I got to know this pen-pal from Penang. HAhahah.. come to think of it, it really is funny and sure brings back some memories. Since I grew up in a kampung like environment, I was pretty shy with girls and well... still not the ladies men till now =.=". Back on those days, snail mail was the IN thing. We would compete to get as much of pen-pals as we can. There was also an international pen-pal society which my sister joined. That was really effective if you asked me. People were really sincere and it was fun anticipating mails from the postmen. Internet? what the heck is that? Lots of butterfly nets stacked up together?
Oh where was I? Yeah.. my first crush... Her name was... Mavis... something something. Can't recall her Chinese name. Guess I scared her off when I told her I liked her. That was the last mail I sent and received after that from her hahaha. If she was reading this, I would like to tell her I'm sorry that I freaked her out :P Was still a kid back then and didn't know what I was doing. Well, that was a dumbass move no matter how many times I think about it. I'd really laugh to myself now when I hear that kids in school start confessing to girls even when the results are obvious. Kinda remind me of myself.
Well, I guess we learn along the way. Kids at skool, if you ever bump into this post, its alright to date in school. Its part of growing up but please, keep your little elephant in your pants. Here are something I wanna share with you little guys out there:
- Mailing a person less than 10 times won't win you the girl.
- Not seeing the person at all won't win you the girl.
- Knowing the girls name and where she lives only won't either.
- Confessing to a girl when you have always been practically invisible under her radar is even stupid.
- Confessing when she already tear up your valentines' card or dump your gifts is... I'm speechless.
- Pretending to be macho is useless. Be yourself! If she likes macho and you're not, means forget it. Don't waste your time. You'll forget about her soon.
- Act like a wuss and forget any hopes you hear me?
As I headed into Secondary school, things are even more interesting. Hormones raging and also the peer pressure of best friends getting coupled! Damn... I wanna erase those memories away hahaha. Secondary was cool but also the gloomiest moments of my life. I had low self-esteem and hated the way I looked back then and it wasn't really helping at the dating department. Looking back at those years, I realize my mistakes of hating myself. Don't, you'll suffer. Learn to love yourself and bring out your personalities and it will shine. Who do you think would love you if you hate yourself?
Altogether, I had several/plenty/uncountable failed attempts at chasing girls during high school. At a point, I was telling myself that I would be a monk when I grow up. The rejections hurt big time, it hurts but it certainly taught me a thing or two. No teacher is better than experience itself. I'd always joke with my friends. Come to me not for advice for courting girls but come to me when you have been turned down. I can ease your pain. After several rejections, you'll learn of what to do and what not. No point in telling people what to do because they won't see how it relates to them. And yes... people just don't listen especially when it comes to this. The biggest advice that you hear is "don't go dating while you're still studying". Seriously, that is really good advice if you ask me now but hey we just don't listen. We only come to sense when time & years pass. STILL, it was good experience to date in school. Better learn when you are young rather than cheated(I am not refering to that... you know what I mean) for the first time when you are 30. Lagi mau bunuh diri.
I got my first girlfriend in Secondary 5 and I broke up 6 months later on my b'day. Not a nice gift but I somewhat chose that day to sort it out with my girlfriend then. We met over the internet and erm.... yes... those were the days where you thought everything is possible. Back then I could chat about almost anything and had a great community over the internet. Where have all the chatting juices gone now? beats me... Funny thing is we met only once and dated over the phone after that... so its not much a relationship when you think about it. Oh... before that I had a gf for a week somewhere during Secondary 3... and again.. probably I can't call her my gf...
Days in college was cool. I met a whole new group of friends(some brothers-in-arm too), fell in love and had a fair share of heartaches along the way too. Think it was the Nth time that I faced rejection which already made me immune to it. Still I had that thought of being a monk soon... =.=". On my last term in college, I met this amazing girl. She was kind to me and we somehow clicked well. We enjoyed each others company a lot. She'd drop by and ask about me when I'm sick and well, basically those little gestures was very sweet. Even though she was already seeing someone, it didn't matter to me cuz I know he's been hurting her. It kills me when I see her cry for him everyday in college. Somehow our friendship/relationship ended up sour when I left college. Don't really know what happened but I guess what's gone is gone. We're in ok terms now but just not that close anymore.
We went to separate Uni later on and life went on without her. I missed her so much, for a year at least since parting with her. Days were gloomy and I just lost interest in everything. The chatty and outgoing me just died back then. I loathed and complained about Uni and hated myself for whatever was happening. Still, things turned out not too bad. I didn't find love but I did find friendship and friends that I appreciate even till now. Some friends that I cared so much that I confuse myself sometimes. All in all, I was contented with what I had then. I was still moaning about the previous encounter that I told myself not to get involved. Still you can't beat the hormones and well, I did resisted temptation for at least 9 months or so.
And soon... Ah, let's just skip this part...
Present time comes and I guess I found someone whom I can appreciate. Although we tried not to argue like other couples but i think that statement might be slightly a bit over-powered. There's bound to be happy and sad times together and we strive through it together. Its what relationship is all about... right? I was the happiest guy alive when we started off. Things were butterfly'ish and I felt top of the world. As years pass, it just tones down a little but I understood that this was a normal thing. Or izzit? We're still together and I'm glad to have known her. She brought hopes and laughters to my sadistic life; though sometimes we have our ugly moments
After all the happy and sad moments of life in relationships, I'm doubting... what actually is love that I've been looking for? Is it the acknowledgement you get after your countless hardships? Probably its like sex where you actually get the 1 - 2 secs of climax but your exercise before that is freaking long. What do we actually look for in relationships? I know I want happiness, I want to be with my loved one but how do you tell if you've found true love? or is there even such thing...
Saturday, March 17, 2007
My girlfrend, my car...
Girlfriends are like cars:
- Car: Expensive but if you work hard and earn enough money for down payment, no problem!
GF: "hard sell" but if you work out her heart, she's yours.. - Car: Choose wisely before you pick your car, you're gonna stick to it for some time till you get enough cash for the next down payment.
GF: Choose wisely, you only get one gf at a time and hopefully only 1 wife. - Car: Before buying, the only concern you have is getting enough money for the car
GF: Before dating, you only worry about winning her heart - Car: After buying, you worry about maintenance and keeping it in tip top condition
GF: When dating, you worry about maintaining the relationship & keep her happy. - Car: Don't get a car you cannot maintain, you'll run it down and waste your money
GF: Don't go over your league, patching here and there won't last. - Car: Pick the wrong car? not easy to sell off also...
GF: Breaking up is hard to do - When you lose your car, you go back to public transport
When you lose your gf, you go back to the single population
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