Tuesday, August 22, 2006

- Fate -

There you are,
Here I am,
At times I'd stare,
Front where I am...

There you are,
so far away,
I hoped for you,
to look my way...

Here you are,
Here I am,
I showed my care,
Were you aware?...

There you go,
As I stood,
I watched you go,
Sighing "If I could"...

There you are,
Here I am,
I've found my place,
to fill my space....

There you are,
you're back at last,
I couldn't care,
My time has passed...

Here you are,
Here I am,
I have return,
but not my turn...

There you go, and
So did I,
So much we care,
just never really there...

- adaptation of the tree, the leaves & the wind -

- EL B.B.W-

Monday, July 31, 2006

Identity crisis

Who am I...
I am sad, not so glad,
And I frown, just not a clown,
Where is hope, to help me cope?

Who am I...
Am I a men? Why so much I feel like a women?
Am I servant? Why must I be so obedient?
Am I a partner? Why am I just like a bother?

Who am I... I am not so patient...
Who am I... I am not a dummy...
Who am I... Who needs your care and attention...
Who am I... Who seeks your acknowledgements beyond compare...
Who am I... None of the other but the one who loves you most...

Who am I... I am still sad
Who am I... I am still confused
Who am I... I am still frustrated
Who am I... so tired of these games...
Who am I... so sick of the silence...

I don't know who I am, but I know who you are...
You are my hope...
You are my faith...
You are a part of me,
You are my everything,

You make me happy,
You make me sad,
You make me angry,
You make me scared...

I must be crazy, but I am glad,
So lost in dreams, So lost in wishes...
So lost in love, So lost in you...
And that is how, I forgotten who I am...

-EL B.B.W-

Friday, July 14, 2006

Same Ol Same Ol Stuffs...

Ah... middle of the night and can't seem so get to slumber... Why?... Same ol' same ol' things... Don't have to mention again... Sleep! Fast fast go back to sleeep! >:P

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

The Dog


Dear all, Meet "Siu Pak" ... direct translation would be "Little White". I think its suppose to be a German Spitz but no one knows because its a stray. Probably a mixed breed... Anyway, this is a tale of a homeless dog that found its way to numerous homes and finally found a permanent home WAY UP THERE!.... =.=

Siu Pak, which I nicknamed her as she was a homeless stray and was running around the streets in Kuantan. One one of the many visits to my girlfriend's home, I met this dog that was running/lepak'ing in the lorong of my girlfriend's house. I was already informed of this infamous dog by my girlfriend before I visited her home. I was very keen in seeing this dog as I love dogs a lot(probably being born in the year of dog has a reason to do with it).

Siu Pak was a stray that looks for food in that particular street. As she looks clean and not so stray like, people around the neighbourhood would feed her. She(the dog) so happened settled down on my girlfriend neighbour's house. This puppy made an unofficial home there and the owner didn't mind too. She had the freedom to roam around but she was a coward who never leaves that street. On the evenings, people will come out and leave food for her to eat. So did my girlfriend's family. They fed her when they had leftovers from dinner.

This pup was living happily i guess... Being able to be free yet fed by many. She's very particular in her food as well. She won't just eat anything you feed her :P. When I was there, I became very fond of it and played with it on the afternoons when I was in Kuantan. On the subsequent trips to Kuantan, I'd take the chance to play with the dog too.

My girlfriend's family didn't really had any attachment to the dog in the beginning. Perhaps it was only natural that after some time, everyone got accustomed with having the dog around and liked it. They bathed the dog, spent more time with the dog... The dog even moved over to my girlfriends house as she was kicked out of her previous home >:P. Its been a while since I saw the silly dogs face. Like my girlfriend said, Siu Pak is coward who never steps out of that road. It really made home there with lots of people.

Anyhow, I won't have the chance to see her anymore though... A dog that never left the road, took a long long trip all the way up there... Waaaaaay~ up there. (all dogs go to heaven) Sad but true. Just when everyone loved her, she went out of the road, and probably some drunk bastard or speeding arses knocked it down. She was missing for a day. Everyone misses her, wondering where she went. Then some neighbourhood friends claimed that they saw a white dog on the road. Lifeless... SIUUUUUUUUUUU PAAAAAAAAAAAK~~~!!! May she find happiness in her new found home.

Guys... I'm not crazy.... Just someone who appreciates dogs a lot.. Well, that's all I have to share today.

Monday, April 03, 2006

The Uncle

This story happened quite some time ago. Who was lost in the scenario? I'm still puzzled. My girlfriend and I were having breakfast in Puchong before heading out to 1U last week. We reached our usual hawker centre and sat down on a table and minutes later a "attendant" came over and took our ofder for drinks.

After ordering our drinks, we started to think of what to eat. I asked my girlfriend of what she wanted and I would go place the order for her. Anyway, she insisted that she go and place her own order because the last time I ordered for her, it wasn't what she asked for. Oh well, anyways as I watched her walking to a stall and ordering, I was standing beside our table and looking at the available stalls.

When my girlfriend came back, I turned around and to my surprise, there was this UNCLE sitting at our table. "........" . I was stunned for a while. While some might argue because I wasn't sitting down at the table, my hand and whole self was at the table. Doesn't that give you the impression that I was there all the while???

I politely told the UNCLE,

Blur Me : "excuse me uncle, but you are sitting at our table".
Blur UNCLE: "how many people?".

I was still blur......

Blur Me : "2 person".
Blur UNCLE: "Sit lah.."

I was like.... Huh? Anyway, I just sat down and asked my girlfriend to sit too. I thought the uncle wanted to sit together as there were 3 seats altogether and the place was full already. My girlfriend seemed pissed as some "wan katt" man came over and sat on our table. Anyway, the uncle was kinda "jijik" as he kept on blowing his nose while eating. No comment....

He left after he finished his food and we left minutes after that too. After we entered the car, my girlfriend was still looking upset with the situation and we had a little talk. Only then that I realized that the UNCLE thought that we were asking his permission to sit on the table with him. I am lost for words...

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

The Messenger

Do you Yahoo? MSN?

Instant messengers are fun and funny at times. Been using it for ages and you can see funny messages posted up on them. People often leave status messages that are fun to read and it can be quite entertaining.

I'm sure by now, those of you who uses them realizes that there are other use for it as well. Some people do advertising with them and well, some would use it as a means of war. Sometimes you see people leaving hate messages across one another and to think of it.. its kinda childish. You leave some hate messages and hopes that everyone reads it too... What are you trying to get at? Its time to grow up people...

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

The Pride of a Lion

Its been a while since I added my last post. Probably because nothing much is happening :D. Is that supposed to be good or bad? Hmm... Well, what is it this time that I'm gonna crap about?

Let's get back to basics. Feelings... Our pride is something strong, yet fragile as it is easily hurt by people. Why do I wanna talk about it? There's nothing wrong with pride, really... We all need some pride in ourselves but still, anything too much won't be good.

Its nice to hear sorry from someone isn't it? Ask yourself this though, how willing are you to say sorry when you did something wrong? Because of pride, some people would rather choose to keep quiet and pretended that they did nothing wrong. Rather than admitting their mistakes, they just act along. Its not that bad really, but then again those who are too proud to say sorry claim that people who admits faults are "weak". Who is the weak one now? Who is the coward?

We are often taught to be forgiving and kind. Though its hard sometimes but we try don't we all? No one is perfect and none can be that great of a man. Still, being able to accept mistakes would be a good start in being a bettermen. Pride, why did you make people behave the way they are? For those who are proud and think highly of themselves, you are not so great... Before you point finger at someone else, know that when doing so, you have 3 fingers pointing back towards yourself! Isn't is weird? If you ever wanna blame someone for selfish, ask yourself too, aren't you? Else, conflicts would never have happened in the first place if you never argued. When disagreements happen, don't blame it solely on your opponent. One hand won't clap and you certainly are a part to blame for it as well. What is important is that we realize our mistakes but then again, pride takes over and you're too proud to lose. What is there to lose?


Pride... So strong, yet so fragile...

Pride and grace dwell never in one place. -proverb-

Pride goes before a fall. -proverb-

Pride goes before, and shame follow after. -proverb-

Pride is as loud a beggar as want, and a great deal more saucy. -proverb-

Pride is the mask of one's own faults. -proverb-

Pride joined with many virtues chokes them all. -proverb-

Pride will have a fall. -proverb-

He that is proud eats up himself. Pride is his own glass, his own trumpet, his own chronicle; and whatever praises itself but in the deed, devours the deed in the praise. -william shakespeare-

Saturday, January 21, 2006

The Bear...


Hello again to all my f... Waaaaat is that??? Disco bear? Hahahaha... What can I say... hmm... There's a lot to say about this bear. If you look at him, he looks like as if he's (the bear) in a very relaxed position while... ehem... someone down there is suffering :P Heck I could already make up stories about this picture...

Scenario 1: Stupid bear goes Poo-poo

Once upon a time, there was a very tired boy who underwent a lot of studies. He came across a house with 3 beds and thought, "Maybe i should take a nap?..." and so he did. He approached the first bed and felt the comfy matresses with his hand... "Waaaaaaaaat! is this a frying pan or a bed??!!".

The first bed was out of the question so he went on to the second bed... "OOooo this is soft!" and up he jump onto the bed and *Plop!* *huff* *huff* *huff* "I'm suffocating!!" he tought to himself. The bed was too soft and so he sank deep into the matress. He somehow managed to pull himself out and went over to the last bed.

"Ahh.. this better be good.." he said to himself. Just as a caution, he felt the bed with his hands. "O.o ! Syokknyeee.. " it was smooth and cooling and just to be sure again... HE Stomped his right foot on the matress... "Ah! just the right comfy feel!" not too hard, not too soft.

The boy happily jumped onto the bed and went to Slumberland Version 2.0 in a matter of seconds... His mouth opened wide as if he was dreaming of food... *tik *tok *tik *tok as time passes by... It was already half an hour since the boy fell asleep on the super duper matress. Then suddenly, there was a loud thump(or squeak) heading towards the main door of the house...

When the door opened, it was standing there with an angry face! A 2 foot figure appeared and it waaaaas ... Jeng jeng jeng~ Kon-nicchi! (Kon of Bleach's long lost relative). "Ahhhh!!! where is it? where is it??? I need to goooo!!! Don't block my waaaay~~~". He sprang up the stairs and pushed open the door and then "Hoooley Syiiiiit!". "Papi Bear installed an automated toilet system for me!! Coool and its not even a model that I've seen before!!" or so he thought...

Without anymore further thinking he jumped onto the seat and *Ka-BOOOOOOM* ......."ahhh~~~~~" AND THE REST IS HISTORY!!!... Trust me.. you don't wanna know what happened next... Hahahaha

-epilogue-
Kon-nicchi: *blink* *blink*... This looks awfully similar to my bedroom... Woops! O.o, o.O
Boy: Mmnnnmnnn ca~aall 9~1~1~~~.


Scenario 2: Boy vs Bear, Final Round, Fight!

Bear sees bed, boy sees bed...

Boy: Nooooo!! Its mine!!!!

Bear: Noooo! I was here first!! I am here every night >:P

Narrator: Round 1, Fight!
*bam bam *dush *swish .....

Narrator: Round 2, Fight!
*Weeeee *Ring Ring *Wa la la la...

Narrator: Final Round, Fight!

Bear: Ultimate hidden technique! KEEENTUT-NO-JUTSU!!! *Prrrrrrrooooooot!*
Boy: ...
Bear: Summersault-rolling-fart-attack!!! Muhahahahahaha!!!
Boy: uuuggrrrhh.... ca~aall 9~1~1~~~.


-end of my silly daydreaming-

The Truth

Ok what the heck, I never thought of writing this part here until my girlfriend reminded me of why the bear was there in the first place... Hahahaha I was over at her place after my exams (if not mistaken) and was kinda tired. So I went to lie down on the bed while my itchy hands went to grab some soft toy from the bed. As I placed the bear on my face, which I really don't know why... My girlfriend saw that pose and persuaded me to put it back again so she could take a shot of it... and voilaaaa~~ you see an idiot with a bear on his face making up silly stories!

Hope you enjoy the crap I made up because I'm really... nuts at this moment... Hahaha And Yeah.. Feel free to comment on the picture :P

Quickie:
Bear: Brum brum! Honk! Honk!! Ah... what a wonderful life...

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

The Feeling...

Its holidays again! Yeah, craved for this season for as long as I could remember but... why am I not HAPPY?! Its really freaking boring at home. No one to laugh with you, make sick jokes or even to have a quick game of dota with you when you're really sleepy but refuse to sleep!

The previous semester in MMU was "holey syiiit!". We don't have much time to sleep or to enjoy as well. I guess its something that's bound to be given up when nearing... er... graduation? adulthood? Yeap! we're all turning into a grumpy of fool in one of these days...

Talking about feelings... which really shows... we humans really can't make up our mind. We crave for something that we don't have but once you get it, well you just want the other way around again. We're never satisfied with anything we have and YES! again the best word is "taking things for-granted" erm... is this how you spell it? blah! couldn't care less. Its really no wonder why those sci-fi shows or animes like to show how humans are obliterated by aliens or other races, as they claim "you humans never cherish anything, you kill each other, kill the environment, and bla bla bla... you deserve punishment!!! Bwahahahaha". Then again, some superheroes or main character of the game will once appear and say things like "true that many are stupid and ignorant but you cannot put the blame on everyone and there are stil those who are righteous and humans are not all doomed! there is HOPEE!!!". Oh what the heck am i yapping about here...?

Well, I do have a message here in this blog. You know your family, friends and yes your loved one's... Remember the days when you just started and things were all lovey dovey? or when you first made friends with your best buddy and you clicked like WTF! for the best days in your life? or even remember how your father and mother on how they used to pamper you? If you do, when was the last time you actually said it to them that you love them, cherish them or even care for them? One thing I've learnt along the streets of life is to NEVER forget to say those simple kind words. You won't know when you won't have a chance to say it. I've regretted before and so I would like to share with you. "I'm sorry grandpa and I miss you lots".

Guys/gals, dun forget your family because they're the ones' who'll stand by you when the world is dark. They won't laugh or blame you for things that turn bad on you. Don't give up on your friends because no one needs or deserves to be alone. Don't take things for granted with your loved ones' just because you feel that they already know how you feel. They don't, if you never show. In fact, nobody ever knows what you are thinking no matter how close they guessed it. Its a natural thing that needs no explanation. If I could read minds, I'd be f*king rich by now and the Money Minded Uni can go bankrupt >:P

Funny how we mistreat the people close to us. We always think that because we're so close, we have no barriers and you will forgive me for everything I say or do. Probably its true.. but to a certain extent. After all, we're all humans and no one is that great. I know I reason all the time when I bully my brother. Because you're my brother so I can bully you and you will forgive me because we are siblings... ngek ngek ngek.. yeah.. its true... but then again... we never really know how much it hurts them. They look up on you... wanting your recognition and all you give him was fear and pain! GAWK!!! bad brother! hahahaha. Well, as we get older, we ermm... get wiser? We think and we realize that its not just that simple. SO... don't assume. I guess I have my lesson too... When someone you care deeply mistreat or never recognizes you for what you did, you will feel bitter too. What's the moral? show a little respect, no matter to whom... especially to those who deserves it... am I wrong? Don't tell me you'd go and curse your parents and get away with it you brat! hahahaha

Its never too hard, too long, too tired or too troublesome to say those simple kind words. You won't know how much it means to them... who? your family, your friends and your loved ones...

p.s: I'm too bored and I feel the guru spirit within!

Friday, January 06, 2006

The Irony...

Hu ha Hu Ha! Getting the mood up for blogging... or crapping... Its only a weekend away from the finals! Yes! the dreaded finals and I'm having this very ironic day! Been preparing early this time but feels like its not enough to cover for the finals... Anyway, I still have my FYP presentation that's not settled yet! Lucky b*stards! I should have finished that too but my supervisor is stuck somewhere overseas! And so... it drags on~~
Oh where was I? yeah... back to the Ironic day. Why is that so? I've been reading for 1 hours plus and my mind is already thinking of something else! Which well, is why I'm writing this piece of post now. Weather is cool after a whole evenings' rain and thats what we don't need now to stay awake! Oh boy, what have I just read?? I'm so bored now!
Wopps... Again, why the irony? I feel like i know a lot but i also feel like i dunno anything! When I go through the slides, it seems so familiar but after closing it, @#!&!^ wtf did I just read? I wanna study but I don't feel like studying! I want to play~~~ but I dun wanna play. I wanna eat but I dun wanna eat... Huh.. so make up my mind already! What do I wanna do? I dunno~
Speaking of which, I haven't used this "dunno" as often as I used to. It was once my favourite word and I'd go dunno, dunno, dunno, dunno~ and on and on... Probably its nice to be ignorant so I won't have to think too much :P I was suppose to meet up with my friends from overseas but heck this is just the wrong timing. When I was lepak'ing all the time, they were glueing their butts in US but when I had to go nuts over work, they have to return here! Argh! Gawd! Must I wait till I'm all bearded until I can see them again?
Anyway, this is the end of the meaningless post! I'm BORED!!! SOMEONE HEAR ME!!! hahahahahaha <(^@^)>