Will

Life is great! but life is short... Too short as compared to an eternity outside of life.

I had a recent scare in my family. One of my members was actually diagnosed with er... well something but thank God... it was just a scare after all. It is in times like these when we really start to wake up and smell the coffee.

A.P.P.R.E.C.I.A.T.E!

Appreciate everyone around you, your family, your relatives, your loved ones. I remembered when I always say that I am not appreciated and bla bla bla... But now I know too, that I have been neglecting my family a little... or alot...

They're my family, always there, never given up hope on me. Probably, because they are always there, we or... I never paid too much attention to things at home, because they were always there. I'm sorry, I lost my way... I lost the person that I once promised to be and I'm picking up the trail once again.

It is a little tricky though... How could you miss something that's always around you? Still, it isn't an excuse to forget... or be ignorant. And so I learnt... I think happiness is always around us, just that we fail to see it as happiness. You have someone nagging you, reminding you daily of your things, asking you for insane favours and waking you up at ridiculous early hours on the weekends... Though it all sounds so... simple, routine and damn annoying... what if, just what if it were all taken away?

We thrive for excitement, new adventures, bla bla bla, yada yada yada... but is that what you really want by days end? For me at least, I want a home to return to, a familiar face I can talk to, whine to, laugh with, cry with and share whatever piece of myself I can with the ones really care about. Most of all, I want to be someone dependable to my family & friends.

What am I swaying to right now...

I guess what I am saying is...

I'm sorry grandpa, my biggest regret was for not knowing you well enough before you moved on.. and I love you too...
I love you grandma, for giving me the best childhood memories... Its time for me to repay you now that I'm all grown up.
I love you Dad, though I always disagree with you...
I love you Mom, though I seemed to be always drifting away...
I love you Sis 1, for your honest tales & lesson and being my "half nagging mom"...
I love you Sis 2, though we fought through our childhood...
I love you bro, though you really annoy me sometimes but as the saying goes... " he ain't heavy, he's my brother"

All my bro-in-arms, my bff's, my friends, Thanks for the memories...

lastly...

Dear,

After the scare of the week... it reminded me of many things, of how fragile are our lives. Yes, we plan and aim for great things... and yet we limit ourselves to a lot of things. I certainly wouldn't think of how important is my insurance policy until now and certainly not think that shit does happen to anyone without warning. Life sucks ain't it? When it comes to things like this! but looking at the bright side... it is at times like this we are honestly reminded of whats important in our lives. I might not know what's gonna happen next... and when shit does really happen to me... So while I'm still alive, kicking, before I really *poof!* out of sight for good...

I love you... always have, and always will... for as long as I am around...